BATTLE IS ON

I have a great war to win. A position that I have to fight for.

For the past few days,weeks perhaps,there's so many things keep running through by messed up thoughts.I've been thinking of what were the things that brought me to this battle.It's like I'm rewinding the days before the battle but man, I really can't think straight.I don't know what to do, i swear I don't.

Just a moment ago when I was told about the war that I'll be facing, I just imagined myself wearing some armors and sword. It's like I was a character on some online games(smirk). While I was listening intently (was i?) to what will happen, I was thinking of a strategy. I don't have clue if it will be successful but I will do it..I was excited but at the same time fear is creeping on my skin. Huh, this was all my fault I know but I can't let anything hold me down. I can't let negative thoughts or feeling break my heart now.If I start to break, I will surely break into pieces.And if I let this feeling stays on me, I will never win it.I know I can just drop my sword, step out of my armor and surrender the war. I just can't do it, there are some people whose life is at stake aside from mine (swallowing hard). This isn't just about me staying on that position but there are people who needs me to stay on that position. I don't know what has gotten into me that I started to write about this whatever.I guess my heart and my brain can't contain it anymore and wants to have it shouted on a note like this,or in a blog like this.

The battle will start soon (next week probably). I have many more days to train and win the battle. My heart and my mind is so messed up right now and I really want to break down and cry.I'm frustrated with what happened but excited to win the battle.Fighting is way better than doing nothing, right? This very moment all i do is hold on to this words "through YOU, i can do anything". Fighting!!!

december 14,2011

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Message : RUTH 3:18
           
         Naomi replied, "Just be patient and don't worry about what will happen . He won't rest until everything is settled today!"

Promise: 

~He will make thing work for your own good. You may view it in another way but God knows what's best for you. He knows what to do so never get ahead of Him. The Lord never left things unsettled.

Command:
 
~Be PATIENT!  It's hard but grumpiness won't do you any good.
~BE willing to wait. Not all things can be given by the Lord in just the blink of an eye. The Lord sometimes    asks us to wait not because He wants us to suffer but He wants us to go to a process that would make us a better christian.

Warning:
~it takes lot of patience when you are waiting. It test your heart and your faith.

Application:
~I will be more patient with everything. I will understand that patience is something that I  need in order to change my character.
~I will have a stronger heart--stronger that it can take all the things that the world is throwing at me that could either hurt or make me grow as a person.